what it's like to lose your best friends

"things change, and friends leave; life doesn't stop for anybody."
---stephen chbosky

in life, you can't have everything you want.

that's that.

i had one year..one year...to make friends.  i thought it would never happen.  i honestly thought i would just leave like that, and it'd be easy.  but you know what?  life is unexpected.

you see the beauty in things you had never even pondered.
you see light in the greatest darkness.
you see the way to the other side of things.

friendship gives you an emotional and physical connection with another human being.  you laugh and talk and just express every thought and part of your soul. 

friendship kind of just walks into your life.  you see things one way, and your perspective gives way for a new friendship.  your perspective gives someone else a new path into your life.

but paths close.  obstacles block the path.  friendships aren't always easy.  complications and complexities often lead to the falling out of friends. 

i think a lot of friendships come about when your direction manual is pointing you one way, but you have to take a detour because of traffic.

losing friends is so hard.  one day, you love them and want to live everyday just like before.  and the next, they're gone.  school is over.

but don't think you've lost a friend, or two, or three, or thirteen.
but you've gained a new opportunity to continue your friendship-which may be difficult, but through difficulties you can often find strength in yourself and others-and make new friends.

i don't think any friends that i make in the future will match the ones i've made at my school.

shoutout to hannah, luke, andrew, abby, kiwi, caro, laurel, kevin, landon, mitch, and so many others.
all of you guys are worth fighting for.