homework

ugh i want a job where i do all of my work when im actually AT work - not a job where i have to do stuff outside of working every day :\

gravity

gravity ( by sara bareilles ) is probably one of the most beautiful songs ive ever heard..its really emotional and sad and empowering.  alex and sierra sang this on the x factor and i was crying at how amazing they were.

my top favorite songs right now!

10.  "wrecking ball" - miley cyrus
9.  "don't wake me up" - chris brown
8.  "heart attack" - demi lovato
7.  "a thousand miles" - vanessa carlton
6.  "into you" - paramore
5.  "ours" - taylor swift
4.  "give me love" - ed sheeran
3.  "love don't die" - the fray
2.  "sweater weather" - the neighborhoods
1.  "say something" - a great big world ft. christina aguilera

so yeah that's what ive been listening to recently :)

sweater weather

and its too co-o-o-o-o-o-old for you here and now
so let me ho-o-o-o-old your hands in
the holes in my sweater

ugh songs stuck in my head!!

ugh im such a slacker

okay so i haven't posted anything in forrrrrreverrrrrrrr!!!!!! (UGH like since NOVEMBER 5TH what is wrong with me)

anyway: school is good...finally! life has definitely gotten BUNCHES easier!! im making more friends and trying to really live this year out to the fullest!!!!

i think ive learned that i definitely cant do anything alone......and that there is MORE to life than getting mad at people or beating myself up about making mistakes or holding grudges or letting my emotions ruin things that i should enjoy.

okay honest moment with Liz: i (pretty) recently went through an "attitude adjustment" at soccer.  that was TOTALLY life changing. (LOL when i get older this will be one of my testimonies to faith)
i realized that getting mad and yelling at people because they made a mistake is completely unfair.  i make just as many (if not more) mistakes as everyone else.  i also realized that i need to look at the bigger picture!! God made this world so we could live and love him..not so that we can win soccer games (though that is fun)....by playing soccer, we are exemplifying HIS glory, and with every mistake, we prove that man is fallen, glorifying His PERFECTION even more!!  being competitive is not a bad thing: but it is what we do with the frustration and energy that we get from being competitive that counts.

*sigh* well that was really heartfelt guys....

but yeah that's pretty much it! :)

the past

do you ever just not understand the past you? like, you cringe at old things that happened and say "WHY WHY WHY HOW DID YOU NOT FIND THAT WEIRD WHAT WAS WRONG WITH YOU HOW COULD THAT PERSON EVER HAVE BEEN ME?!?!?!"  well that happens a lot now.  for example, when I used to be so crazy around my teachers and just........
......omigosh............. I'm cringing just writing about it ugh.....

fanfiction

MONUMENTAL MOMENT IN THE LIFE OF LIZ!
I'm thinking of writing some fanfiction on one of my favorite fictional characters of all time!
Matthew Miller from SR4 (don't judge me)
I have never once in my life wrote fanfiction....well I have dreamed fanfiction but that doesn't count.  Maybe I will even post some chapters on here. Then you will understand why I am so weird. :)

Crazy Day

*sigh*
It has been a crazy day; long good and crazy.
Do you ever listen to music and it so perfectly communicates your thoughts or feelings or whatever and you feel so happy because of that and you kind of just want to cry?  I get so so happy when music defines me...It feels really fulfilling and you feel like that music is the only thing in the world that understands you.  I just felt like posting something.  I got really tired after school today. 
School is really good as it turns out.  I will be doing the homework for 6 days of the week and be thinking "Ugh school is so gross" and then on the Wednesday it's due I realize it's really fun. 
I just need to be consistent with myself.  And I need to be brave.  I need to overcome the challenges I face daily.  I need to become stronger.  I need to be able to choose where I fit in in relation to the world.  And I need to trust the Lord to use me as His carrier. 

I think right now I just don't know how to bring happiness to people.  And I'm hoping God will help me give the same kind of happiness I gave to my friends last year to the people of this year, as well as continuing that beautiful and old happiness. :)

Anyway.
I apologize if this posts on G+.

"Spectrum" by Zedd

Breathing you in when I want you out
Finding our truth in a hope of doubt
Lying inside our quiet drama

Wearing your heart like a stolen dream
Opening skies with your broken keys
No one can blind us any longer

We'll run where lights won't chase us
Hide where love can save us
I will never let you go

We'll run where lights won't chase us
Hide where love can save us
I will never let you go

story

okay so whenever i feel like writing a story i start it...and im like. super excited..and then im just like NOPE not doin this....

15

okay so i am officially fifteen years old and so happy and yet confused because of drivers ed and all that fun stuff so yeah anyway i was just bored so i decided to post this

pain

i really don't like getting hurt.  right now my back hurts, both of my knees hurt, my right hip side hurts, and im just plain tired.  and i have soccer tonight.  hopefully it won't be too hard of a practice.....

fullmetal alchemist brotherhood

okay am i the only one who is totally in love with the anime series fullmetal alchemist brotherhood? i really really love that show.....omigosh alphonse is my absolute favorite....his voice! just hearing him makes me wanna cry!
ugh anime problems :)

secret message

i am going to Do y'all a favor.  aNytimE you see a capital letter, WithIn yourself, Think and figure out How to solve tHis riddle.  How shoUld i communicate this?  well, now you aRe able to figure ouT.  I had a good year aNd i am ready to Get going.  Can you tell that its Really hard?  i mean Yeah sure it was rough initially.  but iN the end, it was Great.  i got the ideA to do this from taylor swift.  she is amazing aNd really cool.  at this point i am rambling on.  Don't remind me i have to Do homework.  Yes, i should be doing it rIght now.  No, ill do it a little later.  Guys okay im almost done.  so when the world stops spinning, Maybe its time to Go back Or something.  Never Never go All out on someone.  don't Lose yourself for someone else.  and if you ever want to gIve it all, you dont have to make Very sure its gonna be worth it in the End. go for it.

okay riddle is done.
(P.S. if you don't get what to do, just write down all the capital letters to spell out a message.)

san fransisco

okay guyzzz
imma goin to san fransisco and wakin up at like 4:45 which is early for even me!!
my orchestra travels a lot and last year we went to china so san fransisco? no biggie!
although my mom isn't going with me this time so it's gonna be a little harder and i will have to manage my own things by myself...

do i even have viewers?

okay so you guys probably noticed i changed some of the fonts...
the post text font i used to have bothered me SO much!
whenever you capitalized something, the letters were so calligraphic that it just looked bad...
and the periods were so small and waaaaay to close to the letters
apologies for my rant

wait..who am i apologizing to? i don't even know who views my blog so for all i know i am pretty much just typing to myself...wow..thats sad

monk episode

when i saw that my last post made "19 posts in all" i was like
ITS UNEVEN!
AAGHHHHHH!
I HAVE WATCHED TOO MUCH MONK!

so yeah i just wanted to type to type.. i am downloading iTunes on my laptop at the current moment..i am hungry i can hear and smell my parents cooking... yummy talk to y'all lates

okay guyz

 

i am planning to get my hair cut nearing the end of july when i get back from san fransisco...if only my mom wasn't against the whole "emo fringe" look

i mean, my face is too nice to look mean...and on the other side of everything i'm not dying it this rainbow color so.....hah yeah..

if only i could grow my hair long enough..

wait, a better if only:

if only my hair wasn't frizzy crazy and curly!

 

i hate this part right here

every day
seven takes
of the same old scene

seems we're bound
by the laws
of the same routine

gotta talk to you now
'fore we go
to sleep

but will we sleep
once I tell you
what's hurting me

---pussycat dolls "i hate this part"

i heard about them a long time ago...and i used to listen to them alot

bla bla bla ginger

my dad always tells me that yelling at people sometimes isn't the best thing, cause sometimes the person will only here so much.

like a dog.

what you say: bad ginger! no peeing in the house ginger! bad girl! why did you do that ginger? bad dog ginger! no more freedom for you ginger!

what they hear: bla GINGER! bla bla bla bla bla GINGER! bla bla! bla bla bla bla bla GINGER? bla bla GINGER! bla bla bla bla bla GINGER!

LOL

don't you guys just love these cheesy quotes i've been posting

hahaha yeah in case you guys didn't know, i can be quite emotional.  this past year i have tried to fix that.  it wasn't completely successful.  but i have gotten A LOT better.  anyway.  just wanted you to know why i post a lot of this cheeeeeeeeeese :)
hugs and giggles

hair

sometimes i hate my hair
but some people don't have any hair at all
so therefore we should be thankful for our hair however annoying it may be

saw this interesting quote from bob marley

he's not perfect.  you aren't either.  and the two of you will never be perfect.  but if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can.  he isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.  don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give.  don't analyze.  smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there.  love hard when there is love to be had.  because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you."
---bob marley

edgar allen poe had a heart

"we loved with a love that was more than love <3"
---edgar allen poe

it's up to you to find beauty in the ugliest of days!

we will meet again

"you and i will meet again 
when we're least expecting it 
one day in some far off place 
i will recognize for face 
i won't say goodbye my friend
for you and i will meet again."

sigh

"letting go of what you love is difficult, but holding on to something that isn't meant for you is impossible"

you can fight

"when you really want something, sometimes you have to swim a little deeper; you can't just give up because things don't come easy, you have to overcome the obstacles and face your fears
but in the end it's all worth while!  life is full of ups and downs, but if you believe in yourself you will always come through with flying colors
value friendship, love and faith
never underestimate yourself
believe in yourself!
have a good life!"

boxing

"life is like boxing.  the day you realize that you will get hit and you will get knocked down at times is the day you get up and keep on fighting, through the bruises and scars that they've left.  you will keep on fighting.  that's the day you will see victory."

a weird thought...

looking back through old diary entries is also weird...
it gives you time to reflect on the past, understand the state you were in, and allows you to compare yourself now to back then...

words of the day:

if life doesn't stop you


no one can

handwriting

you know what's really fun to do?  looking back on your handwriting progression from early-latest throughout the year.  i think in some ways it shows your struggle, your focus, your passions, your character, and it is one of your marks that you can make in the world.

great quotes for saying goodbye

"goodbyes; they often come in waves."
---jarod kintz

"remember me and smile, for its better to forget than to remember me and cry."
---dr. seuss

"never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting."
---j.m. barrie

"goodbye may seem like forever.  farewell is like the end.  but in my heart is the memory, and there you will always be."

"there are no goodbyes; wherever you go, you'll be in my heart."
---ghandi

"don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."
---dr. seuss

"some people come into your life and quickly go, but some stay awhile, leave footprints on your heart, and you are never ever the same."
---flavia weedn

what it's like to lose your best friends

"things change, and friends leave; life doesn't stop for anybody."
---stephen chbosky

in life, you can't have everything you want.

that's that.

i had one year..one year...to make friends.  i thought it would never happen.  i honestly thought i would just leave like that, and it'd be easy.  but you know what?  life is unexpected.

you see the beauty in things you had never even pondered.
you see light in the greatest darkness.
you see the way to the other side of things.

friendship gives you an emotional and physical connection with another human being.  you laugh and talk and just express every thought and part of your soul. 

friendship kind of just walks into your life.  you see things one way, and your perspective gives way for a new friendship.  your perspective gives someone else a new path into your life.

but paths close.  obstacles block the path.  friendships aren't always easy.  complications and complexities often lead to the falling out of friends. 

i think a lot of friendships come about when your direction manual is pointing you one way, but you have to take a detour because of traffic.

losing friends is so hard.  one day, you love them and want to live everyday just like before.  and the next, they're gone.  school is over.

but don't think you've lost a friend, or two, or three, or thirteen.
but you've gained a new opportunity to continue your friendship-which may be difficult, but through difficulties you can often find strength in yourself and others-and make new friends.

i don't think any friends that i make in the future will match the ones i've made at my school.

shoutout to hannah, luke, andrew, abby, kiwi, caro, laurel, kevin, landon, mitch, and so many others.
all of you guys are worth fighting for.

"Stars" by Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

I lit a fire with the love you left behind
And it burned wild and crept up the mountain side
I followed your ashes into outer space
I can't look out the window, I can't look at this place.
I can't look at the stars
They make me wonder where you are
Stars, up on heaven's boulevard
And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far
So I, I can't look at the stars.
All those times we looked up at the sky
Looking out so far, it felt like we could fly

And now I'm all alone in the dark of night
And the moon is shining, but I can't see the light.
And I can't look at the stars
They make me wonder where you are
Stars, up on heaven's boulevard
And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far
So I, I can't look at the stars.
Stars
Stars, they make me wonder where you are
Stars, up on heaven's boulevard
And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far
So I can't look at the stars.